fang dyke (exhausted) @er1n@social.mecanis.me

#introductions my old one was stale and needed an update.

i am Erin.
i am a woman, who loves women. i am trans. i am white. i am young, and a student. i have severe OCD, anxiety, and depression, and a shitton of self-worth issues. i am usually anxious.

i use the surname Moon online. i program software, do maths, and design electrical systems. i am the head of the Rustodon project (https://github.com/rustodon/rustodon). i do ML research for $dayjob.

i listen to and play music. i am trained in piano, but love synths. jazz and funk are my shit, as well as an embarrassing amount of shitty EDM.

i do not generally play video games. when i do, it's usually a lot like work. for relaxation, i read: fiction, comics, nonfiction.

i am strongly left-leaning to the point of anarchism/anarchocommunism. i try to only build systems that do not harm other humans, now or reasonably in potentia.

A tall, slight girl with long, messy purple hair.
She wears a pair of thick, green cut-epoxy glasses; the lenses flicker with glowing symbols.
She has a shaved patch on the left side of her head, with a protruding twist-lock electrical connector.

paypal unsuspended my account! i can pay rent again! and try not to get suspended this time!

haha fuck paypal

every time i see a 1+ replies on a post and there's only one reply i can see, or i see no replies and it says there's one.... that's a little chunk of anxiety.

absolutely fucking foul that mastodon has worse tools in some sense to block or mute people, since you can't guarantee stuff works consistently or removes them from things like fav lists or reply counts

bad people can be large in small communities

i miss some people, very much. not "people who got run off of the internet for being racist" but people who left *because of* other people...

fedi is just exhausting for me a lot of the time and i'd rather be on twitter where a lot of the people i talk to regularly are... it's not even that fedi's bad or anything it just feels painfully empty and stale sometimes since many of the people i was close to on here in the past five years left or don't even exist on the internet anymore

wish that people'd written fedi software unlike anything that existed before...

unfortunately mastodon still has a lot of the problems twitter does and invented some new ones for good measure

all posts on mastodon be discourse introduction selfie fundraiser or shitpost

i dislike how the like... technical ways that fedi is built make everything really hard to reason about and understand and how it constantly feels like the software is pulling the rug out from under you in terms of blocks and suspensions n stuff